2:30 pm
Wednesday, 28 October 2009
love love love love love~
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Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your ...
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me
10:45 pm
Monday, 26 October 2009
long overdued Deeparaya Celebration
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after my cancer studies examination, a
big big huge sigh of relief exhaled. even had momentary
loss of memory about the times i had practically every morning during
my 2 week attachment of Cancer Studies in Seminar Room 1,
Dunluce Health Centre. felt surreal going
back there today for my GP attachment. weird....

on Saturday,
had the opportunity to attend MSSNI's Deeparaya Celabration
in Elm's Village. Helped out a lil in the morning,
& i must say this event turned out very successful!

Was held in the Lounge Room, and it was already
renovated nicely. See those colour themes?

Its everywhere! Love the wall!
loving all the bright colours! seriously just
brighten up the whole room and makes u feel
"fun"(or siau siau) when u enter.

Getting things ready

even had performances geared up for us!
them practicing their songs "Balik Kampung"..
some people were quite emotional as reminded
us so much of home. and his voice is just.. beautiful!

and of course, the other main character of the
event.. glorious, wonderful, heavenly, unbelievable
Malaysian food! prepared by lovely MSSNI commitee & friends.
almost wanted to cry when i saw the rendang and curry ..=,)

Vegetarian Fried Noodles for the vegetarians.
i helped boil the noodles and cut the carrots!! (che wah)

Roti jala by Izzah..
i only got to eat two.. but
it was soooo yummy ..
authentically roti jala.
close ur eyes n imagine.. =p

Nasi himpit!
Don't they just look like gems to you?
So beautiful .. to go of course with ..


And Ayam Rendang.. *cries*
the oozing oil floating at the top of the kuah
is just pure.. perfection ...
ok. daydreaming & drooling too much already.

presenting to you, MSSNI's future logo! its under way!
created by none other than ..

.. Jeffvin Kent!
nice one! =)

My 'apprentice' =p , Marissa (Publicity Dir)
and Jeya (Treasurer)

..or Tai Yi Long ..
or Mafia more suited? hehe

paying 3 pounds entry..quite worth
it to be able to get REAL Malaysian food + familiar faces =)

stalking ..

& stalking ..
& stalking ..

aiyak. kena stalk =p

since both President & VP cannot attend
as they went to London for some UKEC meeting, t
hey charmed us with their presence in forms of clips ..

tu President

tu VP
(yang perempuan)

ok that ends it!


7:43 pm
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
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Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don't they know it's the end of the world

'Cause you don't love me any more

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was

I can't understand, no, I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye
9:45 am
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
runny runny nose run away .. =(
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no fun being sick.
the tip of my nose is getting very sore from all the running & sneezing & blowing.
and having slight fever coming on & off, then on again, off again.
made me confused whether able to go in for class this morning..
no, i didn't go in the end..
*naughty girl*
and have to study some more.
exam friday!
life of 4th year med student is getting boring.

8:27 pm
Saturday, 17 October 2009
Doorsteps + Chocolate room
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it has been quite a busy week, starting Oncology.
Next week will be my last week in this posting, then Friday exam
already. so fast!! i haven't start studying yet, and see what
i am doing now? blogging. tsk tsk. after this will study already
promise! =p

it was definitely quite a depressing posting as most
seniors said, most patients i saw had quite bad prognosis.
the first patient i saw had lung cancer, small cell type which had
the worst prognosis of all lung cancers. not resectable.she has been
having many sessions of chemo and 5 ratiotherapy sessions.
and she's the kind who's never sick, always up and about,
doing 3 jobs to support her family. even after
all that treatment, it doesn't seem to have taken a toll on her.
i didn't even know she was wearing a wig until she told us.
and another, had lung cancer too, but her case was special
till the doctors were so eager for her to be
documented in the medical journal. her lung tumour was so large,
growing and infiltrating into the pulmonary veins and into
the heart, and the heart valve had been flapping unto the tumour.
apparently she had the most dangerous surgery, she did
an open heart surgery, and lung surgery too from the back.
she was really nice to show us both of her scars, and
said "we had to know in order to learn".
and she called all of us "sweethearts" =)

and another highlight was the Loss and Bereavement workshop..
oh.. my.. gosh.. think most ppl in my group(including guys)
teared. they had lecture, then showed videos of real ppl
going through loss and bereavement. they had to put
emo music in the background! =.= then afterwards,
had to share with everyone each of our own losses and
bereavement experience. some of my groupmates quite
sad, lost parent, or family friend, or brother.. lucky i was skipped.
few days later will have a session on Breaking Bad News.
i remember we did in IMU, but am not looking
forward to this. i think i will just cry with the
patient. tsk tsk .. =.=

anyways, academics aside .. today afternoon got to relax
and went on a familiar routine.
Doorsteps Gourmet Sandwich for lunch,
Chocolate Room for hot chocolate,
Tesco for groceries.
All within the same road.

Doorsteps quite famous in Belfast, always
packed during lunch times. They have about 40 types of
sandwiches all written up on the board. And they're massive!!

Smoked Salmon Deluxe.
Salmon + Egg Mayo + Horse Radish
and banyak salad.
3 quids.

Next was Chocolate Room. Almost couldn't find the place, realised
it was just shifted to across the road next to Toni&guys. Was first
brought to by another chocolate lover. =p

this really impressed me.
"Makers to The Majesty the King&Queen"
"Makers to His Majesty Queen Alexandra"

The place was much bigger already, not too narrow.
usually there was a table only to dine-in.
and new wallpaper, and nicer ambience!

Him & his chocolate.

I remembered the first time i tasted it, i concluded
it was the best chocolate ever drank in my entire life.

still stand by it =)

ok.. now shall study. my plan tonight = finish all cancers.
then tomorrow, go through the lecture notes.
9:07 pm
Sunday, 11 October 2009
crazy weekend!
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Psych exam over. As usual, impending doom feeling prior ..
and felt i crumbled during oral examination..
and messed up MCQ. Only booming question aft exam is,
"Did i do enough to PASS?"
fingers crossed! next year only will know results anyways.
well, amidst and after that was an avalanche of good stuff!
binging of photos taken during weekend .. only! (siau)
few favourites picked out.. regurgitated here.


after my oral examination went to meet Han Ying. haven't
seen her for a full year plus .. so nice to finally set eyes on familiar faces =)
and her friend, Shiau Sang(which i never met before ever)
clicked with her quite fast and "bergaduh" with her
throughout the 2 days she around.
even Han Ying say we're weird! haha.

in front of Queen's University

signature dish of dim sum session,
Duck Tongue! taste like seafood.

Next morning, followed Paddywagon tour to
Giants Causeway and Derry.

On the Carrick-A-Rede Bridge.
scary .. and wind was merciless when i stepped on it.

see, even Shiau Sang's hair blowing
upwards, defying gravity like fire

Next stop ..Giant's Causeway. famous for their beautiful scenery & polygonal rocks.
How were they formed? well, there's a myth OR a ecological explanation
to it ... Google it! =p

Got to celebrate Shiau Sang's birthday in Belfast.


AGM Meeting -
Malaysian Students Society of Northern Ireland (MSSNI)

Rushed to AGM meeting after our 1 day tour to Giants Causeway.
Our last meeting together as our ex-committee steps down,
and let them new committee be elected. quite a nostalgic & dejavu feeling
as we took our duties last year, not knowing what to expect.
will miss it..! =)


Them candidates giving their speeches.

Voting in session.

The chairperson of the meeting - PC (on the far right)
Dua models kat sebelah. =p


The new President, Francis Felix &
Vice President, Suisse Lee.

Future, Present & Past Leaders.

Undertaking of Francis Felix! All the best!

some of the peeps.. past committee from various years plus


*crept from behind*

caught unguarded!

went to Speranza for her birthday dinner.
some highlights of the night were ..

.. sitting next to the pizza maker.kept giving us
a show& flipping them pizzas all night.

.. the super gigantic plate of Amataricana pasta. Was stuffed and still
half more plate to go!

.. Suisse suddenly want to braid my hair =p

.. baked cake by none other than ..

Suisse! (her first time baking) & help by Patrick as well.

.. camwhoring =p

one of Jia Li's present.
Sinfully divinely indulgent chocs by Thorntons!

& bear!

Patrick and his awesome shirt

Jia Li Jia Li Jia Li ...!!

tomorrow starting with Cancer Studies. i should be sleeping now already ..